We say we love another but what we actually love is ourselves full of satisfaction. If you have someone that you love now, imagine the situation that you lose the person in a sudden accident. We hope that that does not happen, but if such a misfortune happens, of what would you be most afraid? Isn’t it “my pain” from losing my love? Isn’t it such a terrible pain that you might feel as if you fell into hell?
“I love (myself loving) you.” The words hidden in the fog of unconsciousness are “myself loving.” When we say, “I love you,” the one that we really love is not others called “you,” but “myself loving you.” I love myself falling in the happiness of loving you, my desire trying to accomplish from you, the sexual thrill that I have with you and the sublime beauty that I feel by loving you.
The words hidden in the fog of unconsciousness. As a malignant tumor sleeping for a long time jumps out, it reveals the truth hidden in the sub-consciousness. It is “loss” and “anger.” When we lose someone or when we are angry, the truth hidden in the words “I love you” is revealed.
“I love you.” Love is the word making us so thrilling just by listening to, and the most beautiful and precious word among so many words ever existing in the world. However, the “word” that we value the most has a hidden meaning of which we are not conscious. We would not know it because it is usually hidden deep in the unconscious level, but in special situations, it appears to us all of a sudden.
Falling in love is like riding the Viking ride of love and hate between heaven and hell. At whichever position these two people are located, unless they realize the reality of “self-love,” they cannot escape from the eternal cycle of love and hate. Ignorant love cannot but be violent. If you really love your lover, you should know what hurts them first.
Behind the actions of what we think love is, selfish desires are attached relentlessly. We make others into tools, control them for our happiness, and disguise this with love. Sometimes, the disguise is so tricky that it even deceives us but eventually, the selfish desires show up.